Blink of an eye

Funny how things can change. Have you ever learned something that while you wish you never did, you are also so glad you found out?

I find it ironic that I set this blog up and was using it to talk about my great friends. My friends that I trusted and depended on for everything. And to learn that you have been betrayed by one, to find out that your friendship really meant nothing. It's quite a blow.

Losing a friend is a lot like losing a mate or spouse. You kind of go through the same emotions that you do when you have a break up. Anger, sadness, remorse, the "what-ifs". Then, you start the closure process. But how do you totally do that? How do you completely shut it out? How do stop caring about that person? Even when you are so hurt and angry? And how do you get over it when you have so many questions that will never be answered?

As humans, we all make mistakes in relationships. We don't always handle things the way we should. We get angry when we shouldn't. We get pissy. We overreact. But isn't that why you have friends? To know you have someone who will love you even when you do? Who is still there at the end of the day....who says "Yeah you were a bitch, but it's ok, I still love you, let's go get some ice cream". You never expect them to say that to you, while they are telling others how pathetic you are, how aggravating you are. How they don't really want to deal with you. That isn't a friend. That isn't someone who cares. That isn't someone who has your best interest at heart.

And it's really hard when you come to that realization. It makes it easier when others do at the same time and you can commiserate with one another. Help each other up. Say "we will get through it together". Those are friends. Those are the ones you cherish. And they are the ones that will help you close the chapter in your life.